That's my 40 weeks look which was August, 31 (according to my ultrasound) and September, 1 (according to my doctor). Anyways, it's the second today and the baby is still not here. I had an appointment on Thursday and the news are not very encouraging. My doctor said the baby hadn't dropped yet all the way, I wasn't dialated either. Honestly, I am pretty upset about it. I was sure he would be born at least a week earlier. It just doesn't make much sense to me. I started feeling Braxton-Hicks contraction somewhere after week 32 and they were getting stronger and more constant, especially at night. I was keeping moving a lot through my last two months. Then around week 37-38 I started feeling mild period like cramps followed by mild diarrhea and pressure in my pelvis. At that point I was sure my body is just 'ripening' and it wouldnt be longer than 2 weeks till I have my baby. Obviously, I was very mistaken. Through my week 40 I had back pain, stronger contractions and worse cramps. Sometimes it hurts to walk, cause it feels like someone is stabbing me with a knife right in between my legs or my inner thigh muscles is twitching. But as I already said my last appointment didn't give me any good news - all sealed with the baby balancing pretty high. Last couple nights I have terribly annoying pack pain with constant nausea and all day long headaches. My contractions are painful but not even close to the point when I can't talk through them or wanna cry. Plus they are so scattered in time that I don't even bother counting them. I was reading a lot about lightening when the baby drops, and they say I will feel it cause it will be easier to breathe on one hand, and more pelvic pressure on the other hand. Nothing so far. When I sit or lie on my side my lungs are being squished, no super strong pressure down there as well, at least it doesn't feel new. It all sucks cause I am going through all this for the first time, so I have nothing to compare to. And even when I read about all the signs of labor and birthing experiences it's not much of help, since every woman is describing her feelings differently and each experience is unique. There's no standard scheme, unfortunately. How am I supposed to know what is right or when is the time??? I relied on my feelings a lot, but since I failed with my predictions I don't trust myself anymore and it sucks!
I am having another appointment tomorrow, on Tuesday. My doctor will look at me again and we will decide what to do. She said I could wait a little bit longer or she could just send me to the hospital and deal with me there. Honestly, I don't wanna wait anymore. I feel anxious all the time and just shitty overall. Every new pain is making me think that's it and then nothing happens, and I get even more frustrated. Plus with every day the baby is getting bigger and I get more and more terrified by him smashing all of my lady parts completely. I know I sound selfish, but come on! I've been pregnant for 10 months sharing my body with my child. I am tired! If the baby still doesn't drop by tomorrow and I am not effaced or dialated I will probably ask my doctor about a c-section. Cause the thought of having fake labor is frightening me even more. Getting me effaced, dialated, making the baby drop... It just sounds like too much. It's a total failure. Plus all these inductions will most likely extend my labor significantly. I do not wanna have 24 hours of fake contractions! And my chances for a c-section will rise significantly with the induction anyways. So, I figured I would rather just go straight for it and skip hours and hours of pain with most likely the same outcome.
We'll see what happens. Wish me luck. Hope I will have some sleep tonight before my noon appointment tomorrow. Never thought it would be so challenging(((
I am having another appointment tomorrow, on Tuesday. My doctor will look at me again and we will decide what to do. She said I could wait a little bit longer or she could just send me to the hospital and deal with me there. Honestly, I don't wanna wait anymore. I feel anxious all the time and just shitty overall. Every new pain is making me think that's it and then nothing happens, and I get even more frustrated. Plus with every day the baby is getting bigger and I get more and more terrified by him smashing all of my lady parts completely. I know I sound selfish, but come on! I've been pregnant for 10 months sharing my body with my child. I am tired! If the baby still doesn't drop by tomorrow and I am not effaced or dialated I will probably ask my doctor about a c-section. Cause the thought of having fake labor is frightening me even more. Getting me effaced, dialated, making the baby drop... It just sounds like too much. It's a total failure. Plus all these inductions will most likely extend my labor significantly. I do not wanna have 24 hours of fake contractions! And my chances for a c-section will rise significantly with the induction anyways. So, I figured I would rather just go straight for it and skip hours and hours of pain with most likely the same outcome.
We'll see what happens. Wish me luck. Hope I will have some sleep tonight before my noon appointment tomorrow. Never thought it would be so challenging(((